My box of medications arrived. In a BIG box .Not a cute little box, which is what I imagined. There was a big brown box sitting on my porch waiting for me at midnight when I arrived home from work. I was at once excited and nervous, and so I decided to settle in for the night and then open it up and take a looksy. Today's entry is mostly going to be in video format.
There are 2 videos: the first one was recorded about 2 days after I opened the box and had calmed down and wrapped my brain around all the things. The second video I recorded that night (or early morning- I think it was abut 2am- my regular bedtime due to my show work schedule). My intention was to make a recording of the contents of the box and explain things for this blog. I didn't expect to be so overwhelmed.
I hope that if you have gone through this and had a similar reaction, you don't feel alone. I found out from my friends who have opened their first box that they had a similar reaction. Which, honestly, that made me feel better.
I chose this picture for today's entry because I found it so beautiful and full of the unknown. Kinda like what this journey is. I am attempting to remain open and transparent through this process. Some days it is harder- I struggled with rather or not to share the initial video because its not sunshine and rainbows. Its me struggling with the enormity of the process I am in and how to do this without a romantic partner that is "built in and home" and alllllllllll those NEEDLES. I mean, Lordy, there are so many. If anything, maybe I will conquer my aversion to them. oy vey! Please forgive my end of day looks and puffy crying face haha....everyday ain't a beauty pageant! ;)
**Watch First** Explaining all the Meds and the Overwhelmingness
The Overwhelming Video- Caution- Sad Panda Meghann Ahead.....(but don't worry- all is OK now xo)